Feeling like I can't forgive, but I want to it's like I don't know how to live, I’m afraid to I used to think take them as they come, without hesitations, no now it's like my head is filled with lies, and persuasions
as the sun begins to fall I hear her calling out to me she's sayin' hurry it's one more day gone
what I wouldn't give just to forget so I can remember how to live again I wanna live again
I am feeling dissonant, and distracted the toxic chemicals are spilling in my head and they're bleeding deadly reactions
and as the moon begins to rise he shows me all the colors that I’m hiding I’m hiding myself
what I wouldn't give just to forget what I wouldn't give to get some rest so I can remember how to live again I wanna live again
am I desperately losing this fight when I should really be choosing my flight take me now
what I wouldn't give just to forget what I wouldn't give to get some rest so I can remember how to live again I wanna live again
what I wouldn't give just to forget what I wouldn't give to get some rest what I wouldn't give just to forget so I can remember how to live
i am a crazy girl unsure and weak unsteady and silly undeserving and [in]dependent understanding and confused thank You, Father, for knowing all of this and for guiding me...
[mat kearny - all i need] Guess we both know we're in over our heads We got nowhere to go and no home that's left The water is rising on a river turning red It all might be OK or we might be dead If everything we've got is slipping away I meant what I said when I said until my dying day I'm holding on to you, holding on to me Maybe it's all gone black but you're all I see You're all I see
The walls are shaking, I hear them sound the alarm Glass is breaking so don't let go of my arm Grab your bags and a picture of where we met All that we'll leave behind and all that's left If everything we've got is blowing away We've got a rock and a rock till our dying day I'm holding on to you, holding on to me Maybe it's all we got but it's all I need You're all I need
on mondays i wake up and feel weird. i think i have mondayitis, which is unfortunate because i don't like the symptoms: i wake up and feel like i'm the only person alive because all of my roommates are gone, i have a sad empty tummy, a sad empty heart & i feel super sentimental - it's so strange... then God lets me breathe and smell and taste and hear, and i remember that i am not alone, no matter how alone i may feel.
i don't want to have a list of rules about how far i will go to show my love for Jesus, i want to have no restrictions -- i've been thinking about His love for me lately, and how when we say "God loves you" it doesn't even phase you anymore, does it? but if you think about it, God loves YOU, he loves ME - he loves us personally, for who we are as individuals he is pursuing ME! how huge is that?
my roommate meg and i were listening to that song "to make you feel my love" [everyone covers it] and it's a perfect song for a relationship, it's a song that brings back a lot of bittersweet memories for me... but it's an even more perfect song to describe God's love for us...
i learned a new song at disneyworld - to the tune of "who let the dogs out" - sing "who woke snow white up" it's quite fun, really
so disneyworld = riding the monorail and getting soaked in the back of a tour boat = super fun and i went to chipotle for the first time and cheesecake factory for the first time and forever 21 - my favorite store it was the perfect day
yesterday we went to st. augustine and it was lovely
sorry my posts are so surface level, i'll get deep someday
i am sad that it's my last day in florida, i've loved being here but there are some reasons i'm excited about coming home
